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I'm not interested in suitors. I dodge having one. I don't like it.

For me, just befriending the boys around me is enough. I'm contented with my girlfriends. I'm happy being single -- for exactly 19 years and 11 months of my existence here in the world. Hahaha.

I don't actually hate guys... but I don't like them either.
--- though honestly, I'm not really like this before... not before some sort of "experiences".
 
I actually get flattered easily. One of my weaknesses is my eyes. Usually when I look at someone else' eyes, I'm gonna feel something already. Well, I mean it's what catches me -- the longer I look, the deeper I'll be attach. It is most especially in case of an eye-to-eye contact -- because it affects me more! That's why I always avoid eye-to-eye contacts with a guy (another side of me unveiled).

So the thing is: BOYS COME AND GO. They love to start, but they can't keep... till the end. Frankly, they do really END!


 I admit, I'm a hard-to-get type of girl.

The scene goes like this:

There is this girl. There is this boy. The boy offers some hints to the girl. The courtship begins. Along the way, the girl's still not gonna give in yet she starts to like the boy. The girl wants to see how the boy's gonna go further to pursue her just to make sure he's serious. Then when she's ready, the boy's nowhere. To realize, the boy's not really serious. For a short period of time, END.


I admit, I'm a very insecure type of girl.

Another scene goes like this:

There is this girl. There is this boy. The girl actually likes the boy. Suddenly the boy makes his move. Even if the girl have mutual feelings towards the boy, she will pretend not to be interested in the boy. Again, it is because the girl wants to see how the boy's gonna go further to pursue her just to make sure he's serious. Then when she's ready, she will know other girl (s) who like (s) the same boy. Regardless of ALL, she gets insecure. END.


Is it bad to be such type of girl? I can't do anything about it. It's my personality.

But I think it's only natural to act like one, am I right? And so the boy just must do anything to break this wall, isn't it? Or am I the only one with such mentality?

I don't think I'm too much of it. It's just within the level. So is the problem still about me?

Whatever it is, I don't really hate guys. I just don't trust them... not anymore.

So blabbering. So lack of one word. So disappointing. They just give heartbreaks. They just make eyes water. They just make me love my pillow more and more.

So now, when I feel that someone's making a move, I make my own move as well before he can even start what he's planning. What's the move? To push them away. I don't say a word. I don't talk. But I'm gonna show that I'm not interested. It's all in my actions. And this move of mine always works. ALWAYS WORKS.

Maybe someday... Something's gonna change... At the right time... At the right place... With the right person... Maybe... Someday...