The Reply

I woke up at almost 10 am -- not mentioning the earlier time when I was first awakened just to see Kuya poking at my face so I got irritated that I hit his hands. Oh well that's all I could even remember because obviously I was still out of myself by then. All I know is I went back to sleep after that and so as I was saying, I woke up again and it's already 9:48 am to be exact. Nothing really significant about that actually. What really my point is what happened just upon I woke up.

I have a text message -- it's from Mommy. It says, "Papasa ka. Always think positive anak. Kaya mo iyan, anak. Pray and make it. God will bless you."

Dot. Dot. Dot. Until it finally sank in to me. It was a reply to my message last night (or should I say while ago at passed midnight?), when I ask her what if I didn't pass the board exam. Honestly, I was o touched. At last, I got even a slight tint of comfort and support that I was long looking for since my review have started. Finally. And I was grateful for it. Thank you for your words Ma. But I didn't send a text back to her. At least, my troubles are lessened and I can work on it again now.

Then another message which immediately follows the former says, "Please anak, makipagbati ka na kay Ate mo bago ka man mag-take ng board exam mo. Okay?"

Ha. Haha. Hahaha! For this one, I am so speechless. I don't know but several thoughts just suddenly entered my mind. What is that? I mean, what is the meaning of that message? I don't get it exactly. She is asking me to reconcile with whom? Me? To her? Before I take the board exam? With even time limit? He. Hehe. Hehehe. I think she got it all wrong. I am not the one who did wrong, so why am I the one you're asking to? I have done nothing wrong. Ahm, well, I think I have. But just that, when I became so hurt that I don't talk to her anymore after that day. Since that day, I act like I don't see her. I act like I don't hear her. I act like I don't care about her, whether she is here or not. That I even like it more if she is not around. Hahahaha. Anyway, she's the one that you should ask 'coz in the first place, she's the one at fault. If she's willing to, then it's okay then. Honestly, I don't really care about that matter anymore. Just like what I am always saying, I know, if it's time, it will be. Just like what happened yesterday. It's really a miracle that she started talking to me, so I talked to her in return. But that's just all.

But why so suddenly Mommy? You seriously think that we're still not okay here even if you're faraway. How amazing. Because it's actually the truth. Even if it's almost a long time ago now, you know that things aren't settled yet. You're really something. But you even try to ask me what? Why? Oh yeah, you don't want us to be fighting with each other.

But why did you say "before I take the board exam?" I felt scared suddenly. Is it something that is related to my exam? Are you praying to god for me to pass? But first, I have to reconcile first? Huhu. What should I do now?!