Finale

I, together with my siblings just had special dinner while ago -- a little celebration I say…


So many how-tos. So many don’ts. Techniques. Advices. Reminders.

For months, I have heard lots of these -- almost day by day -- while preparing for the board exam.

Looking back, though I already had some readings in the month of May, my official review which was on PERC started in June. When it ended in July, my self-review began thereafter. Within this span of time, I had really gone through different situations. I had felt more or less all kinds of emotions.

At first, of course, there is me still playful and frivolous -- having a hangover with the vacation, taking my review lightly…

There am I also being a lazy bone -- postponing the preparation of board exam application requirements, and even the application itself…

Along the way in the middle, there came me being foolish -- distracted from review, then afterwards realizing the mistake, would resent oneself for the wasted time, hitting one’s head saying, “You’re so stupid! Why?! What have you done?!” and wishing for the ability to turn back time…

When the dead-serious phase finally kicked in, the next me evolved to:

Being so religious -- attending and participating actively in every Sunday Masses, feeling so sorry if failed to, and even lighting candle offerings in the Church -- which is in fact, a first time…

Being like a nerdy bookworm -- spending a very great deal of time surrounded by all kinds of integrated notes -- with contents from the most obsolete to the latest; of different sources from university lectures to review center hand outs to local and international books; with letters from the smallest to largest; of different types from hand-written to photocopied to printed; on different papers from the most ordinary (yellow pads, continues forms, brown papers) to special (bond papers, smooth glossy papers); with variety of emphasis markings from erasable underlines and circles of pencil to black-and-blue ink of ballpens to yellow-and-green colors of highlighters…

Being like an owl -- awake all night until daybreak, then will just have a quick nap and wake up again at the afternoon…

Being like someone on a strict diet (if it’s even considered as one) -- consuming nothing but a pitcher of water for the whole day…

Being like an always-PMS-ing woman -- so sensitive, irritable, full of hatred against inconsiderate noisy distraction-causing companies at the place…

Being like a dying person -- worrying all the time, counting the days left before the board exam…

Until the time came to being a scared-cat -- to the point of even thinking of backing out just one day before the board exam…

Yes. All of these -- all of these -- I experienced before the board exam. The bad thing, my restlessness didn’t really leave me until during and after the licensure exam. It worsened even actually -- up to yesterday.

Yesterday is the release of result of Medical Technology board exam we took five and four days ago. At 20:30 pm last night, the official roster of newly-passed medical technologist is finally out on the internet. [Clears throat] I’m so proud to say -- yes, my name was included in it. I’m in it! I saw my name in it! Yes, me! As in me! Em-ii! Me! I passed! Yes, I passed! Meaning, all of my hardships, my sacrifices, and my roller coaster experience during this last five months -- it is all worth it. All worth it! Furthermore, know what? My other friends and acquaintances passed as well! And our university? It is included in the top performing schools! It is really a very very very very good news.

[Deep Sigh] So… I guess this is an end now. This story has just had its conclusion. I remember, when I started this as one chapter here in my blog, I wrote in my ever first entry, “I hope the ending will be happy.” And yeah, right now, I’m smiling… with not really flowing but just forming little tears on the side of my eyes… because… yes -- I just achieved what I have hoped for -- a happy ending.


Now, another journey begins. Like what it is said, “When a door closes, a window opens.” And now, I know I already have a ticket for it.