Hard Feelings

So tired… but at least I also feel fulfilled. I just finished the laundry and I was able to do some cleaning, too. But! It seems that I still have done nothing. My previous laundry is still unfolded! Gaaaahhh!!! I can't believe it. I graduated college just to become a house-girl. Sometimes I think what if I just work as a real maid, and then at least I can already earn my own money! But this? I am serving my siblings. What else can I do? Every day, I am the only one who is not going anywhere else, and is just staying left here in the apartment while they are away.

But hellooo! I am preparing for my boards for this coming September!!! Can they also do me a favor, even just sometimes? I am grateful at least ANA does. She knows my problem and right now, we are the ones who can really understand each other, hence can depend on each other only.

ANAAAAA! Come home now!!! Why did you leave me, with Kuya, whose full attention is currently on the computer and internet?! He doesn't even voluntarily prepare food (anyway when did he?) knowing that I am already tired of what I have just done?! What?! Is he still expecting and waiting me to cook?! Really! So hateful. I am already hungryyyy. And he just bought a coffee… for himself… only. [Sigh] Is this what working and earning own money can do? I swear, when time comes when I already have a job and is also earning my own money, I will not be like them.

Okay, that's it for now. I still have to start and finish my review. Huhuhu! I am so doomed! Our mocked board exam is already on Wednesday, yet I am still not finished with 5 subjects! Worse, all of the previous subjects that I am done reviewing seemed like gone-like-the-wind again! I have to reread those ones again… Gosh!!! I am really running out of time!!! I'm so worried and nervous now… September. September. September!!!! Good thing I was able to attend the Sunday Mass yesterday. Somehow, I felt peaceful even just for a moment. Well, it's because only during Mass and when I'm inside the Church that I can find peace. That really helps me a lot. Okay okay. That's it. End.